I’ve been wanting to write a LiveJournal. I haven’t written since January but every time I go to write I just don’t have the energy or desire. I mean, I want to update, to keep up, but sometimes I feel so depressed over things I just don’t want to face that. I often prefer just shutting the world away.

So much time has passed; I’m not sure if it’s ( Read more... )

Title of this entry is for you, Leah!
So here I am typing this because I’m being made to by being held at gunpoint via text messages over the phone by one fun chic, Leah *smile*.

So I guess I can get work out of the way ( Read more... )

Okay, it’s been…10 days. I’m really bad at this anymore. I have wanted to update for a while now, but I haven’t been able to due to schedule and just being tired.

Last Monday (7/23), I hit my rock bottom when it came to Monica. She noticed throughout the day that I was somewhat off and was curious as to why. I tried to by general, telling her I ( Read more... )

”Things were never easy for me
peace of mind was hard to find
and I needed a place where I could hide
somewhere I could call mine”
- Genesis, No Son Of Mine

Not too much to report on, but here’s what’s what…

Still reading The Sword of Shannara. It’s slow going, but I’m liking it, so here’s to more!

Got my couple orders in the mail the other ( Read more... )

”Feels like you made a mistake
You made somebody’s heart break
But now I have to let you go
I have to let you go”
-Matchbox 20, Disease

So, things have certainly been…interesting/busy he last few days, which is why I haven’t updated lately.

The situation between Heather and me is still a bit uneasy. I hardly say anything to her, and look at her ( Read more... )

”I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I'm drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side”
-Mariah Carey, My All

Well now, I’ve not written in a few days. Time for an update!

Monday (the 18th) was just one of those days you knew not to get out ( Read more... )

“Cause everytime it rains, I fall to pieces
So many memories the rain releases
I feel you. I taste you. I cannot forget
Everytime it rains, I get wet.”
-Ace of Base, Everytime It Rains

It’s just been one of those days…

Work was just meh. Just couldn’t get past the first project of the day I started. 10am-5pm and I couldn’t get 3 of the lousy ( Read more... )

" You can tell everybody 'bout the state I'm in,
But you won't catch me crying cos I can't win
I don't care anymore, I don't care anymore."
-Phil Collins, I Don't Care Anymore

I don’t know where I want to start with this. Last night I had something a little upsetting happen with Jenn (not in the love aspect really, but a friendship aspect). And ( Read more... )

Okay, so, as some of you know, yesterday just wasn’t a good day at all for me. Not at all. And it’s only proven if you wake up with a bad omen (dream) about work problems and have a bad feeling still something is gonna happen, then don’t’ go in to work ( Read more... )

Today was okay until after lunch. Kevin and I both got pulled into the office with Amy and Candice. There, we were told we were being…”too negative” and seemed “unhappy there”. We both just looked at each other going, WTFlipp? We joke to each other, being sarcastic about the rude people we get a hold of, or some of the dumb stuff going on, but it’s ( Read more... )